Tuesday, September 6, 2011

socially alienated

I have had a few friendships dissolve over the years.  Amy, Jenny, Cody and now Kris and Kenny.  The first two I really don't care for.  I was never comfortable around Amy.  And Jenny was always a bitch who projected her insecurities onto others.  She was a freeloader and she was weighing me down.  She was a pain in the ass on our trip to Vegas.  Jeff knew that too.

Cody....he is just an embarrassing goofball.  I can't hang with him when he drinks.  I can't be around him when he has a temper.  It's a total turnoff and I don't have the tolerance to stick around for it.  Still, I think I should wish him well for his soiree.

Kris...I don't think there is much I can do at this point except to just apologize for being critical and mean.  And maybe explain why.  I'm going through a transitory phase of trying to clean up and create a life for myself.  I would appreciate it if you could be more encouraging and supportive.  I don't have room for negative energy in my life.  I will no longer try to push you to do anything, but I would like you to push me to succeed.  That's what I need right now.  People to push me in the right direction.  Your energy drains me.  I need light, optimism and positivity.  It's a crucial because I'm depressed.

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