No wasting the best years of your life waiting around for something that's likely not going to happen...
I'm not gonna beat around the bush. If Aaron wants me then I need to find out soon. He has been confusing the shit out of me lately and I think that's because he's toned down his behavior since our last text quarrel. I think he was just flirting in his rude, intense manner which turned me off. My response probably hurt and irritated him but he was being immature in a stupid joking way. I just need affection and someone to shower me with attention.
In the beginning he would carry my bag and stuff, and then Emma would say that he's more like a boyfriend. But he wouldn't reveal anything. He's a secretive type of guy. But something happened one night. He got more flirtatious than usual when we were in the car. He was behaving funny. He joked about why I wanted to go to my room "do you want to make out?" and then about us needing candlelight in my car. And when I used to drop him off to his place he would give me a nice, long hug.
But there are things about him that turn me off too. I think he is self-absorbed in some ways that make him selfish and insensitive to those around him. We are officially roommates and I will move in this coming weekend. He didn't express any excitement for that. At least not like before.... or maybe that depends on his mood?
Either way, I don't think he will ever let me enter his psyche and heart.
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