Sigh. It's Thursday late hour. I have no energy and I had a skimpy meal of fiber one bar and a banana to last me the entire day. That is barely enough fuel to keep me going. I did a bleach and tone and started from 11:30-6pm. Ridiculous. The client I did Sarah, was sweet and she's a musician/composer that lives out in Silverlake. Maybe color would be good for me. Especially out in Florida. There's a glimmer of hope, but the spark isn't fully there either.
I guess I don't feel like opening up or chatting with Aaron when I come home because he just ignores me and doesn't greet me. His grumpy mood makes me feel uncomfortable. Plus I am too tired to bother with him. Just like he said he couldn't bother with me when I avoided him a few days for triggering my feelings of shame and embarrassment for not having much job experience. Anyways, I am setting limits with his mood. I end up wanting to do my own thing so I just live on with my single behavior at home.
I have enough of my own problems to worry about someone that is mentally ill and likes me but is a pain in the ass to deal with. My family is here and I'd rather hang with them.
Good night.
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