The battle of who could care less

I have five (5 day) weeks and two days left until I complete my 1600 hours.

I really despise the person that my roommate is.  I hate where he is in his life and his illness.  I also hate the fact that I can't utilize him for my hair studies.  Fuck.  It means that I've got to do it all on my own.  When we were friends he gave me impression that he was going to help me.  But shit happened, he held back and became rude to me and I ended up hating him and rejecting his advances.  I just hate how fucking immature he is.  That is who he is.  I can only change my reaction and not give a shit anymore.  He is ugly to look at and ugly to listen to.  And ugly to deal with.  Highly sensitive and intuitive people will get creeped out by him.  That is me and Emma.

I shall live as if he doesn't exist.

Force your mind to concentrate and learn.  Please do it Uni.  See if you can do it without the help of antidepressants.  Or just take it...fuck it.  Take it for the next 5 months to get off this slump.

I said some powerful shit to him.  I asked him if he had a moment to talk and he didn't text me back.

"You really need to take care of yourself and I'm not catering to you anymore."  I told him if he wanted a lasting friendship with me he has to respectfully earn it.

Make a decision right now!!!!!!!!!!!

1) I do not want this person in my life
2) There is nothing to gain from him (except for his ugly, moody frowns and his ugly everything)
3) Get off the pot so you can get more shit done
4) Start breaking the pattern of dwelling on how much you can't stand him.  Just do something else.  Focus on hair.

When you graduate and you are out of here, delete him off Facebook.