Wow, I must moderate my drinking nowadays because I can't hang. I need to take care of myself and know my limits. I can definitely smoke pot which is a lot better.
My appetite has been greatly diminished. I ordered breakfast a little before noon but it's now 2pm and I've only had OJ and some leftover bites of chicken tikka masala. Anyways....
I've been thinking about hair as a profession and I think I'm gonna do it. I want to study the shit out of hair while I can. I want to be like Debz. She knows everything about color and she's marketing and working for herself. It's really awesome. It works because she's bubbly and chatty when she's in the bar. I think this profession will help get me out of my shell. I need to first work hard and feel confident in my abilities. After that I think I have a cool, winning personality to go far. Yeah!! And I'll make lots of friends and meet all kinds of people, difficult and rewarding. But if I can understand difficult people it may help my next career choice which is to be a family therapist, LMF. I know that my life just took a new course, but I think Laurie is right that things will get easier when you start to want to help yourself. This means that I'm at a MUCH better place than I was one year ago. I wasn't doing anything. So much can happen in one year. So little can happen in one year too. It depends on you and where you are at in your life. I'm watching the Shipping News with Kevin Spacey. He is an unaccomplished man who hasn't done much with his life. After his estranged crazy wife dies, he has to start and pick up the pieces because he never really lived for himself. When his aunt arrives at this door (seriously incoherent parts to the movie flow), she suggests that he move to Newfoundland. It's a small populated town much more suitable for Spacey's growth because it takes you to a simpler time where the odd, isolated, and outcasted can thrive. It's like saying that he needs to be in a smaller pond.
I don't know why I'm feeling so anxious since I've got the entire weekend to relax and catch up on my hair cutting notes. I guess I'm not proud of missing class today. That is $150 gone to the school and possibly another $150 to make up another day. Fuck. Not good. I feel like I'm fined for traffic tickets or something.
I have Saturday, Sunday and Monday to organize my hair cutting notes. That is all I'm responsible for :) Yay!!!
I guess I feel like I should be spending time with Jenny, or I could get to know Lindsey during her birthday party or even Eric. Yesterday was actually kinda fun. I gave a haircut for Yalena's model. It was a beautiful one length bob. It was fantastic to work with Leo and I enjoyed the blow drying process. I talked to Adrian, Eric, Debz and Lindsey invited me to her birthday party. Even better is that Aaron observed me interacting with Adrian, Eric and Lindsey. I'm sure he saw me assisting for Leo giving Debz a haircut. Let's just say that I enjoyed talking to these people. Aaron was socially and conversationally weird lol. I can't help feeling that he is uncool. He probably viewed me as being a cool person. All in all, yesterday was lived to the fullest!! And after school I had a drink with Adrian and Debz and joined Jenny, Jeff and two others for Korean BBQ at Honey Pig. We tried getting into La Descargo but went back to DTLA and checked out Cana and Broadway bar. TONS of drinking!
So now I'm paying $150 for it. Whatever, don't sweat it anymore. And don't shame yourself as you naturally would. Just enjoy your weekend to yourself and take care of yourself!!!!!!!!!
You don't have to hangout with anyone this weekend but yourself if that's what you want. Enjoy your time!
Just recover first.
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